Today's cross

It is going to take me a while... but I will figure this out. It seems I am clinging to my cross instead of carrying it.

I am really struggling with my emotions lately. Everything is big and explosive to me. I am sweating the small stuff, and it really is small stuff ...to you.

I have this great plan though; I am going to suffer this flesh of mine like I have never suffered it before. I am going to pick my heavy cross up and not only carry it around, but display it. Push it in the face of the enemy and laugh at his confusion. I am going to learn how to trust you and depend on you for everything I need. I am going to figure this out. Be patient with me for just a while longer...

I will figure this out.