The 10 Things That R Ticking Me Off!

The 10 things that are ticking me off.

In general I consider myself to be a fairly optimistic gal. Most of the people I know tell me I have a “great attitude.” There are only 2 people who ever see the whole of me and that is because they have no choice… they are “my people” and I have to vent to them. One being my husband who can’t escape me and the other is my best friend who is in the same boat I am. I think it is great to be positive and to speak that way, but everyone is allowed to “be angry and sin not” once in a while. Right? Well here are some things I just can’t seem to shake. Some things that frankly TICK ME OFF-

1. My perfectly healthy husband was diagnosed this year with M.S. How ridiculous is that? Where did that brick to my head come from? How do I wrap my hands around that and chock it out of my thoughts?
2. The children that I am attempting to adopt have been broken by idiots who should not be allowed to procreate, and now I have to try and re-parent other people’s children. How do you explain God’s love to children whose eyes have seen what their eyes have seen? How do I give them all the love they need when there are days they push that love to points where it feels like it will break?
3. I am completely unbalanced in my life and can’t seem to stay on track with all my priority areas. I want to write, I want a career, I don’t want a career, I want to go back to school, I want to spend more time reading God’s word, I want to volunteer my time, I want more time, I want a clean house, a clean vehicle, a clean yard, a clear mind - oh crap … I am overwhelmed already.
4. I am always being pulled in a million directions so instead of doing one thing really well, I do a hundred things half way. Everything becomes an “almost” in my world. Did you get that done? Almost! Are you ready to go? Almost. Are you losing your mind - you bet cha!
5. I never finished college. I keep saying I will, but then I must refer back to # four. I am almost signed up for Spring classes.
6. I no longer workout or eat healthy and as a result have no energy. This is because of #3. I can’t seem to balance this into my life anymore. I now have to suffer thru the rubbing together of my thighs and that is not good for anyone.
7. I love to write but literally the second I start, I am interrupted. I received 4 phone calls while attempting to jot these few notes down. My brain is already mush without the extra help of "side tracking"it. Because normal, functional hours will not play nice with me I am forced to stay up into the scary hours of the night and morning just to have uninterrupted time with my brain… and my brain is not happy about the hours I am keeping with it.
8. I am not out soul-winning like I am mandated to do. Not that the mandate should be a reason to do it, but it is a reason to do it! I feel so incredible when I am witnessing, but balance again runs its course and pushes me off mine.
9. I don’t fast & pray like I should anymore. I am so weak in my flesh. I let the enemy run over me with a dumptruck and fill my mind with so much fear and garbage and it could all be destroyed with some serious fasting and prayer.
10. Me, myself and I - I am my biggest hurdle. I could fix all these things in my life and have not done it. I annoy myself with this list of things that tick me off because the truth is that when it comes right down to the guts of the matter; there is no list.

There is just ...



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